The high of graduating nursing school has almost completely faded away now. I have been job hunting only to find that with no experience you cannot get hired. So how can I get experience if no one will hire me?? I am considering going back into the administrative field just so I can get a job. I still need to take my State Boards though too and that is going to take another month or so to get scheduled. I should have started the process sooner but I didn't want to do it without knowing for sure I was going to actually graduate. Not that I am superstitious.
I am feeling kinda bad lately. Every day I am fighting horrible gas pains and it feels like my bowels are twisted in knots. I have eliminated carbonated beverages and anything with even a little spice to it. I am about to start a total liquid diet to try and calm things down. I have horrible noises coming for my stomach too. I am pooping (like crazy!) so I don't think there is a blockage. I am so completely bloated all the time now though. I just think my guts are very unhappy. My bones and muscles have been hurting the last couple of days too, but I have been pushing myself a little. I have decided to paint several rooms in our house. I am trying to do this is small steps but it is hard not to get carried away some days. I have way too much time on my hands I guess. And I love painting! I feel empowered when I can ban my family from different rooms in the house.
I am excited though because on Thursday this week I get to give myself my first B12 shot. Well, not my first one but the first one I will give myself. I get to see what kind of nurse I really am! ;)
We started going to a new church too so I am back in Bible study two days a week. I think it has been good for me. I have really reconnected with God and I think I am beginning to reach some much needed peace in my life. Nursing school really did some damage to me - physically, emotionally and spiritually. It's hard to explain. At least it's getting better now.
I have also been reading other blogs from people with Crohn's disease and I have to say, though I am not in an active flare up of Crohn's right now, I can still remember all the pain, the sickness, the treatments, the feelings - everything. I think it is awesome that so many of you have blogs to help support others with this disease and to be open to accepting support for yourselves too. I think most of my current stomach issues are all results from the treatments and surgeries I had because of Crohn's. There have been a lot of advancements in the treatments for this disease since I was diagnosed 17 years ago. I am hoping and praying there is a cure soon. I really hate to see so many people suffering.
Well that's enough babbling for one day I guess. Be well.